Hey y'all, how is...you guys? Yeah, I know I'm good with words aren't I? XD. Anyways I'm fine, thank you. It is now summer vacation, my relatives have come to visit me, a loud bunch they are... I don't mind company but you see, I'm one of those girls who have a personal need for quiet. It is hard for me to be around a lot of people. This post is an update, so prepare for major ranting...
My first year in Vienna will come to and end next month. this year maybe, no, it most certainly WILL be my last in Virginia. We will be moving to North Carolina after the summer ends. I am not happy to leave Virginia so unexpectedly, but I believe this is allah's will, like everything else in the world. I might never know, but maybe this is Allah's new challenge for me? A new learning experience? After all I'm a free, unbound spirit, Allah must like to test people like me.
I wonder if my broken heart will heal when I'm away from the place my beloved and I meet and spent quiet days together. Away from the school library where my solitary days were suddenly interrupted by chattering German boy. I know life isn't a fairytale, he says he doesn't love me so he doesn't, why do I still see him everywhere I go?
I'm my dreams he is smiling and real, whenever I speak German I hear his accented voice. I can still feel the warmth of his pulse under his neck from when he embraced me. He's like a haunting ghost that refuses to leave me alone! How long should I suffer with memory and why? what kind of punishment is this? I didnt know loving someone was so painful and sad, I dont want to feel this way ever again. I dont care if I'm all alone. I dont want his memory to effect my life anymore.
Rant over...How are you guys? How has life been treating you guys? I know no matter what that I will remain strong and keep walking my path
Kotani Yumiko
